Tuesday, September 19, 2017

Health Nuts Unite!

It's no secret I haven't been feeling too well for the past few weeks (feels longer, but I'm really not sure). Granted a majority could very well be due to stress and anxiety. Unfortunately I don't know for sure.

Yes I'm aware I'll probably sound like one of those paranoid hypochondriacs you see rant on social media, but I'm truly hoping this will relate to someone out there.

Every single morning for months I've been unable to drink or eat anything for the first few hours of the day after waking up. Doesn't matter what time it is, I just can't stomach it (and no I'm not pregnant for those of you who are thinking it). I'm also being constantly bamboozled by consistent, painful, debilitating headaches that come and go in waves. They make it hard to do almost anything, let alone think straight. I also get horrendous pain near the lower end of my left rib cage. So bad to the point where it takes my breath away.

At night it's a whole other issue. I have severe anxiety attacks, night sweats, nightmares, and back pain.

Sometimes I'll get extremely shaky and weak. I suppose jittery is a more suitable term, but I'll use both to help get my point across. Almost as if I've had WAY too much coffee, even when I've had none.

All in all I feel like I'm being worn thin to the point of no return. I don't know if I need a disconnection from my life - minus my Padawan because he's my everything - or if I just need a good weekend of rest. I'm not sure, but I'm hoping that maybe someone could possibly shed some light onto what might be going on.

Other than what seems to be a never ending ordeal of health issues, I'd like to say this: I miss when my life was boring.

Recently I've been dealing with dating drama (I haven't shared mostly to keep certain situations private), friend drama (lost someone I had known for 26+ years), and now life drama. Before things were simple, I only focused on homeschooling and my son, I didn't dabble in people's problems, and I sipped teas during the night.

Honestly I'm seriously considering making a huge change that could alter my direction of life. Quite possibly I could go backwards in a way, returning somethings to how they were. It's late so maybe it's the anxiety talking, but I can say that something has got to change. I'm just not sure what or how much.

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